the last two weeks

it’s been two weeks now, and i haven’t found a way to write about this episode. i’m not sure why. two weeks ago, dad had a heart attack. as a result of that we discovered that there were three blockages in his arteries. the last two weeks were a little ‘iffy’. but praise God, they managed to clear both blockages and he’s now home resting. the next few weeks are important too, to ensure that the stents hold well.

it’s been a series of many emotions. thinking about my mom and all that she has to do. realising that dad still handles most of the practical things – from finances to driving mom for marketing etc. and how now, life has to change drastically for all of us.

the only thing is that i hope dad will also realise that God’s been merciful to him and us, and that his life needs to change much too. that, i’m not too confident about.

i also just want to thank everyone who prayed and who texted and who wanted to visit etc. thanks for caring.

as a result of the last two weeks, i also decided to cancel my hillsong/melbourne trip. i’m a little sad, and there are times when i find myself mentally transporting myself to pitts street, and oxford street, sitting at burgerlicious or bondi, standing outside the arena, arm bands in the air, waiting for the opening, worshipping, listening to the messages. hillsong conference had become my yearly getaway – my yearly re-fuel station.

i’ll also miss hanging out with the Tans. it’s been a year already. so much has changed here. but this friendship means heaps to me.

i guess there’s also a realisation that this may be the last year we get to travel like the ‘old days’. watching musicals, shopping, walking around, eating, eating, eating. laughing. sharing stories. talking about church. meeting people.

but it’s ok.

sometimes you just gotto do what you just gotto do. and i’m glad i can be around to help mom and sort things out with the house and stuff.

and i can’t wait for ‘australia day’. (come back in a few days for the full report!!)