it’s hard to believe it’s been so long
but at the same time, it feels like yesterday
like yesterday i got the call
like yesterday i had to make the drive down the ECP,
lost, unsure, pained, and in that drive needing to make sense
Thank You God for being there
it feels like yesterday still, when i had to make plans
and inform everyone
and make the trip up
and stand by that wooden box
and to find the space to cry
alone
i miss her
still
but i’m thankful for the time we had
thankful that God, You allowed me this privilege
to have known her and to have had her in my life
i’m thankful she is with You
and that she is whole and healed
and loving every moment being with You
i still don’t fully see the picture,
but these last weeks, i’ve come to see Your hand move in this story
watching “Up” recently became a sacred moment for me
for in his struggle to make sense
to remember
to live up
he finds the adventure book, with her words
she writes
“thank you for the adventure, now go find a new one to live”
and suddenly, it was like these lines were meant for me
i’ll be honest,
it’s been hard to find a new adventure
but like the old man in the show, i know there’s a new generation that i can reach out to
and so i will
God,
i’m not afraid of the future,
i trust You completely
and i’m so thankful that You are with me
and that You have been with me
lead me
guide me
make me
i didn’t think that writing this would be so hard
still
beauty packaged
October 12, 2009so that’s how they do it …